I have read many of the comments in the guest book after writting of the loss of my dearest little daughter Freya, age 19. It seems to me that I cant continue like this. I soak myself in alcohol every night when I am not working, and take sleeping pills. Judy D, you write so beautifully and with such love and compassion to the parents who suffer such anguish. I work as an nurse,and at work I find some peace from the pain, as I have always worked and that has been an outlet for me. To care for others is some sort of start; I hope at some stage I will be able to talk to others who are like me. We are special people, we have suffered unimaginable pain, and somehow we are still here. We wonder why we havent died of a broken heart because our hearts are truly broken and we feel like broken people. Somehow, we wake in the morning and go through the motions of another day. We are strong; we just dont realise it. I look forward to talking to another mum like me, all my love Denise

To My Beautiful Son Richard Ian...It's your 32nd birthday today, I thought of you with love today but that is nothing new, I thought about you yesterday and the days before that too, I think of you in silence, I often speak your name, All I have are memories and your picture in a frame, Your memory is my keepsake with which I'll never part, God has you in his keeping, I have you in my heart.

I love you and miss you so much my loving, beautiful son and my friend. Your heart broken Mum XX

My dearest only daughter Freya, who died aged 19, 1 year and 9 months ago. My best friend, my little soul mate. You used to say we were joined at the hip, and we were. You told me you werent feeling well that night, and I told you "You will feel better in the morning". Well, I deserved to find what I did, your poor litle cold lifeless body. I am so so sorry my little love. It was my job to keep you safe, and I didnt. I feel so lost, so lonely. Life without you isnt worth living. I have tried, but I dont want too any longer. You were so beautiful, funny, bubbly and bright. You were doing so well with your English degree at Uni and Dad and I were so proud of you. You know Freya, I couldnt stay in our house. I couldnt stay at my job or our city, and then our country became too small. You always left me little notes and bunches of flowers to say how much you love me.I love you more than the whole world, and I just want to be with you. Are you out there somewhere? My darling little girl. All my love forever. Mummy. Blow kisses xxxxx

My PRECIOUS CHILD, Nathan, On Saturday the 4th of September, is the date that you suddenly left us, without a goodbye. I remember that night clearly,at least I did get a goodnight kiss, I am thankful for that. the pain is the same. I find life really hard with out you. I did find a poem,author unknown,hoping it will help me through the hurt,and the agony of not having you near.I hope this poem will give other mothers and grandmothers,fathers and grandfathers,some kind of hope and peace:-
I'M ONLY A WHISPER AWAY.......GOME DRY YOUR TEARS AND SMILE AGAIN,I'M ONLY A WHISPER AWAY,
NEAR IN THE DUSK OF THE EVENING,JUST OUT OF SIGHT THROUGH THE DAY,
WATCHING YOU WALKING AND SLEEPING,HEARING EACH PRAYER THAT YOU PRAY
SENDING MY LOVE TO SURROUND YOU,I'M ONLY A WHISPER AWAY.
COME DRY YOUR TEARS,AND SMILE AGAIN,REMEMBER THE GOOD TIMES WE'VE KNOWN,
CHERISHED THE JOY WE DISCOVERED AND THE LOVE THAT WAS PLANTED AND GROWN
YOUR ROAD MAY SEEM LONELY AHEAD, AND DISTANT HORIZONS LOOK GREY
BUT YOU WON'T BE WALKING ALONE,BECAUSE I'M ONLY A WHISPER AWAY.
Nathan I know that you are near,but you are always on my mind and in my heart. Love you forever Nathan. Miss you badly....Love eternal Nanxxxxxxxx

1 month off 5 years since you were so unfairly taken from us our Matt, missing you forever, doing my head in that I've not seen you for 5 years.Your forever grieving mum xoxo "Shine on you crazy diamond"

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I haven't been to the site in a little while, but whenever I come back there are more mothers experiencing the same pain as me. Why must we lose our most precious children? Life is so unfair. My Travis passed away 4 years ago last June. I miss him so much, my life will never be the same.I am consumed by his passing. Time does not heal. I think it only makes it worse. Each day that passes is 1 more day without my loving son.

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Its 14 months today since Darren died
We have to live without him
The whole worlds grey with pain
But with the courge that he had we"ll keep trying again and again and again
Pauline

Beautiful Judy Dowling, You are always there for everyone and I want you to know how much it means to us, especially me. I think about you so often and I miss you. I still have my butterfly ring, I will never part with it. Take care my lovely friend. XX